Mournfall System

[Mournfall System]

About us! Pinned Post!

I don’t really know what to put here and we may edit this a thousand times but here goes!

We’re a DID system (working on a diagnosis in therapy Edit 09/05/2023 - we’re diagnosed now!).

We support good faith identities and self-dx!

This is a safe blog for all system types and origins.

Syscourse will be kept to our syscourse alt.

We don’t want drama here. Please and thankyou.

That being said, anti-endos and such can interact with us, though if it’s syscourse-related we will use our alt to keep it off this blog. You’re free to DM if you wish. Don’t be an ass and we’ll get along fine.

We’re an Adult! Body age is 25 (as of this edit)!

We’re cool to interact with minors as long as conversations are appropriate.

We are older and will act accordingly as the mature and responsible adult in the situation.

If our age makes you uncomfortable feel free to not interact.

We’re hoping to make friends with people and have a chill time overall! Chat with us~

Interact/reblog/like spam is okay and encouraged!

More system info and our DNI under the cut

[Mournfall System]

[orange-orchard-system]

Something that really bugs me about AI voices and stuff is that it could be useful!! If I could get an AI version of my own voice (and, presumably, connect it to text-to-speech), I could see myself pursuing some careers that I'd like that aren't really available to me as a semi-verbal person, like streaming or even call center work. But instead we've got "Do you want to replace this big part of your work that you enjoy with AI so you can Work Faster?" and "What if we just replaced artists instead of paying them fairly?". Like, of course you'd say that, you greedy fucking corporation. Why think of ways to help people when you can be thinking of ways to make more money?

I know I don't talk politics on here much but. Ugh, capitalism.

[agentukelele]

AI voices would be cool as SHIT if they were done like Talkloids or whatever those speech vocaloid things are called. Itd be nice for people who are severely dysphoric/dysmorphic about their voices, or for who need additional voice actors for their projects but just want to do things themselves. There IS a place for this type of thing but it has to be ruined

[Mournfall System]

[sad-trans-girl]

I wonder what would happen to the Tumblr ecosystem if all trans people weren’t so fucking touch starved? Would it all just fucking collapse?

[dyke-pollinator]

Ya know this was meant to just be a shitpost, but youre right. I have a lot of feelings on the matter so this may just turn into incoherent rambling, but touch is so god damn important.

I went through ~5 years of absolutely no intimate touch and let me tell you, it does things to you. I was so much more likely to think my friends didn’t like me. I felt such a deeper sense of isolation and anxiety regularly, and when you’ve gone that long without regular touch, those moments caused (me) such intense feeling of yearning. Desperation for anything even resembling closeness. 

And of course this occurred while I was also figuring out my own gender identity, which made that entire process so much more difficult to parse out. I was filled with regular doubts about whether I was actually trans or whether I was just doing this as some form of attention seeking behavior because I was so desperate for human intimacy. It fucks with you ability to feel like your a part of a community, and the longer you go, the worse all of these things can get. It can feel legitimately inescapable. The stress of it all can be a constant burden on your mind. 

I wish I had better advice on how to escape this loop. It took me ~2 years of regular effort to slowly build a friend group (primarily of other queer folks) to get there. It was a lot of emotional effort. A lot of putting myself out there and a lot of asking others what their comfort with physical touch was. All I can say is that it was worth the effort. My heart goes out to all of the lovely folks who are isolated and struggling to find that sense of community that makes them feel comfortable enough to express and receive physical affections.

Tell your friends you love them. Hold their hands. Kiss their foreheads and give them long hugs. Cuddle together and watch movies. Lock arms while walking. Rest your head on their shoulders.

 I absolutely loathe that soft intimate expressions of physical affection are viewed as something inherently romantic or sexual. Theyre NOT. Full stop. We need touch. The queer community really needs touch. 

[Mournfall System]

[stjohnstarling]

Eroticism is simply one of the basic modes of human expression and the fact that it terrifies people who have built their lives out of repression and self denial is only more reason to make erotic art. They will not stop with their own lives, they want to punish anyone who doesn’t conform to the same standards of cruelty they heap on themselves. But of course it will not work. It has never worked before. Even under the most adverse conditions beauty has always found ways of flourishing. We refuse to hide or live in shame and fear. We will make beautiful that which they find repulsive. 

[1greenameba]

Ok , but what abt ace pepole ?

This kind of post always seems to forget that asexual pepole exist ...

[boomstab-papa]

Please don't try to pull that. "Pro-eroticism is anti-ace" is tired and bad ace discourse. Ace adults are adults. We know how to avoid things we don't like. Asexuals simply aren't clamoring for an extinction of erotic art or eroticism.

Also the post said it was "one of the basic modes of human expression" not "THE basic mode and everyone's required to participate". Nobody's forcing you to engage with it. If you don't like it, then you're free to avoid it. Go engage with other art.

The post didn't forget.

The post said "Stop trying to censor erotic art just because someone else doesn't like it. It won't work."

Signed,
An Ace

[ober-affen-geil]

Did you know that Eddie Redmayne wrote his thesis on International Klein Blue because even though he is colorblind? It's not because he can't see the color, it's because he can see it differently than everyone else.

Aces can and do experience the beauty in erotic art. We just don't experience it the same way Allos do.

Lines of movement, displays of skill in a medium, unique and interesting ways to portray the body...there are many, many ways to appreciate a piece of art that do not involve the sexual reaction the piece was perhaps intended to invoke. Being ace does not prevent us from seeing and enjoying the same thing Allos do. Just changes the way we do it.

[Mournfall System]

[teaboot]

Adult ProTip, from a security professional: If a kid tells you, "My parents are gonna kill me / kick my ass / kick me out" for something relatively minor, don't respond with shit like "Really? ;) that sounds a little extreme, don't you think sweetie?" because that shit really does happen.

Instead, respond as though whatever threat they are afraid of is fully valid, and offer whatever you can do to help- ask if they believe they are in danger of being hurt in any way, and work accordingly.

If they're overreacting, they'll usually realize and dial it back, self-correct and begin thinking a bit more rationally.

If they're not overreacting, and the danger is real, then they'll need a level-headed adult in their corner, not another condescending authority figure who doesn't believe them.

[Mournfall System]

[vague-humanoid]

ALT

[beaky-peartree]

[Mournfall System]

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

What people don't understand about "no excess physical activity/exercise" is that everything is physical activity.

I told the people at orthopedic urgent care that I can't do physical therapy because my condition doesn't allow for exercise. They gave me a list of things I could do at home. They were exercises. I was frustrated at first, but it made me realize how able bodied people can't conceptualize "no exercise" at all.

Walking down two hallways to get to my college class is exercise. Cooking and baking are exercise. Getting something from downstairs is exercise. Even typing is exercise. Each one of those things chips away at my ability to do simple things, like sit upright or speak or even just stay awake. When someone says they can't exercise for medical reasons, that means they can't, and pushing them to do physical activity because it "doesn't take that much energy" is dangerous. Everything takes energy.

[Mournfall System]

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

What people don't understand about "no excess physical activity/exercise" is that everything is physical activity.

I told the people at orthopedic urgent care that I can't do physical therapy because my condition doesn't allow for exercise. They gave me a list of things I could do at home. They were exercises. I was frustrated at first, but it made me realize how able bodied people can't conceptualize "no exercise" at all.

Walking down two hallways to get to my college class is exercise. Cooking and baking are exercise. Getting something from downstairs is exercise. Even typing is exercise. Each one of those things chips away at my ability to do simple things, like sit upright or speak or even just stay awake. When someone says they can't exercise for medical reasons, that means they can't, and pushing them to do physical activity because it "doesn't take that much energy" is dangerous. Everything takes energy.

[Mournfall System]

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

What people don't understand about "no excess physical activity/exercise" is that everything is physical activity.

I told the people at orthopedic urgent care that I can't do physical therapy because my condition doesn't allow for exercise. They gave me a list of things I could do at home. They were exercises. I was frustrated at first, but it made me realize how able bodied people can't conceptualize "no exercise" at all.

Walking down two hallways to get to my college class is exercise. Cooking and baking are exercise. Getting something from downstairs is exercise. Even typing is exercise. Each one of those things chips away at my ability to do simple things, like sit upright or speak or even just stay awake. When someone says they can't exercise for medical reasons, that means they can't, and pushing them to do physical activity because it "doesn't take that much energy" is dangerous. Everything takes energy.

[Mournfall System]

[song-writer-melo-wrath]

fuck it.png, might as well ask since this has been on my mind for a while, so hey,

People who have used canes in some form or another! Hi!
I have used a cane a few times, the reason for my use is a wavering thing so constant use isn't needed in my case, but it does provide stability. Especially in the morning, when my body is usually the weakest. Thing is, using a cane gives me lots of anxiety, and not because of people looking at me. Well, that, but more than that. The thing is, the noise of a cane against the ground makes me feel so awkward. Like oh no people are gonna stare at me and think I'm weird and aaaa. Or maybe reminds me of loud footsteps. Just really skyrockets the anxiety.

And I know some of this may be some internalized stuff to work out. It's made me curious about something, though. Are there canes that are...not like that? That don't sound like loud footsteps?

Cause that would be great—

[Mournfall System]

[theglamrockcollective]

Y'know another strange trans experience I've had is having to reacquaint myself with the idea of femininity. I've been solidly passing as male for about a year and a half (I'm 3.5 years on T) and I have just very, VERY recently (thank you Barbie) started to become comfortable expressing myself in a more "fem" way. Stupid little things that shouldn't be gendered but generally are by the public. I dyed my hair purple, which I haven't done since before I came out as trans TEN YEARS AGO. For the Barbie movies I painted my nails Barbie pink and wore a pastel purple top and rainbow shoes. Ive been growing my hair out and braiding it in different ways and borrowing my daughter's cute little hair clips with gems and butterflies. And when I first started doing this I was terrified that I was going to go out in public and someone would clock me as trans. But that didn't happen. Instead, I am treated like a gay man, because that is how the public perceived me. As my 4 year mark on T rapidly approaches, so does the anniversary of a new outlook on life. An outlook that still escapes me sometimes, and I'll catch myself walking towards the women's room because I don't want to get kicked out. Then I realized that now, going in the women's room IS what would get me kicked out.

I don't know, I'm just rambling at work because I don't have anyone else to tell about this. My DID also plays a complicated role in my relationship with gender, but that's a story for another day.